No best Solution............Is there???

Guilt is gripping me like a tightrope coiling around my heart,tighting it everytime I looked at clover...Once more,I am going to forsake her,thrust her into the unknown....Sigh,another cargiver throwing in the towel,the fact that clover do not sleep for long make it tough for anyone looking after her,it is certainly not easy handling an active baby...Was torn between infantcare and maid,though both has its pros and cons,seriously,having an extra pair of hands make lightwork,especially when it comes to household chores,hmm...who ever like to come home to pigsty,isnt it?But the thought of leaving the maid as the sole care-giver more than 12 hours a day with clover alone somehow puts me off,especially with the recent bad press,what with all the mounting abuse cases,sigh,eventually,it all boils down to luck,yet my lao gong and I feel that we cannot afford to take the risk...


Went to infantcare,prepped myself to be ready to see kids down with colds and flus,but more than half of them were suffering from colds and flus,some with fever too,oops,would not be surprised that clover may be next,hmm..I am trying my best to convince myself that clover is building her immunity,it is a good opportunity for her to interact with other kids,she has to learn to wait for her turn to be fed,shower and change...no longer the baby who rule the house anymore...it is only a matter of time anyway,for her to mingle with other kids,still the overprotective side of me warns me that in such a "rowdy" environment,I have to ensure clover receive optional vaccinations as well,true,it may not be 100% guarantee risk-free,it is costly,but it buy us a peace of mind,a small price to pay,I feel for clover's well-being,and hopefully,avoiding the daunting medical bills,should "touchwood" clover gets infected....hehe...

If anything,being a mum make me more in tune in showing empathy towards other parents,now I can truly understand why even though the child is a 13 year old teenager,the mum still frets over her meals,insisting to come over to school every day for two weeks,ensuring that her child is adjusting well,making friends,why at 14 years old,the mum willingly carry her son's heavy schoolbag ,fetch him to and fro school,never allowing him to be home alone for fear that he will not be able to take care of himself,abit extreme,but well,these are some of the cases I came across being a form teacher,while last time I may scoff off at the idea of overbearing parents,now I say I understand...but sometimes,we must draw a line,kids must learn to be independent,after all,it is a world of the fittest who survive,the ability to adapt is one of the crucial life skills,I,too must learn to let go.....